FREE... FREE AT LAST!!!!

The bar exam is OVER! Thank heavens! I never want to do that EVER again... It was the most miserable experiance of my life...

Tuesday was 12 essays. They were manageable. I by no means wrote perfect essays, but I do think I did well enough to pass that portion of the test. There were four essays that I knew like the back of my hand, so that really helped my confidence.

Yesterday, the multiple choice was tough. I mean REAL tough. I have been doing well on the practice questions, but that was nothing like I had ever seen before. I was soo time crunched, which is strange because timing has never been my issue.

I honestly don't know what the end result will be, but I can say that I did everything in my power to pass. The rest is in God's hands.

Even though it was such a rough experiance, I am so blessed to have such amazing friends and family. I got so many encouraging texts, facebook messages, cards, even care packages and home cooked meals. It was such a good feeling to know so many people were praying for me...

I felt so loved...

Wanna know whats REALLY exciting?? My 1 month vacation starts TODAY!

Break down

today. i. finally. did. it. . . i broke down....after 8 weeks or so of being eerily calm it all crept up on me.

I mean dry heaving broke down...and let me tell you. IT WASNT PRETTY.

I cried for a good 15 minutes. you know the kind where you chest feels like its cramping and it about to explode...ya. that kind of break down. NOT GOOD.

However, I pulled myself together. Reminded myself that God has brought me this far. And that even if I cant do this, HE CAN!

I heard a blurb on the radio yesterday morning, that sometimes God allows difficult things to happen because he wants us to learn a lesson. I really think my lesson in this journey of prepping for the bar, is PEACE. I'm a high stress, type A person...and He has over and over again reminded me that I just need to have faith and peace...

So faith and peace it is!

Any who... enough reflecting and procrastinating.. back to the books. Property Law is my bedtime story this evening...

Here is just a tiny glimpse of what my week holds in store for me..

Whirlwind...

I haven't posted since my last exam.... yes, I survived. In fact, I had my best semester yet! And.... I am graduating (drum roll please....) magna cum laude...

I have been busy enjoying (soaking in) every last second of freedom.... There is so much that has happened in the last, what two weeks?? that I could write about or post a few pictures of. Since I probably won't have a whole lot to write about all summer (other than I studied. alot.), I'm sure I will have time to catch up.

I crammed a trip to Raleigh in there, a trip to Carolina/Wrightsville Beach and a graduation party in my honor at my parent's house. I will blog later about these adventures...

So, today was my first day of "official" bar prep class. 9:30-4. Not to bad. Our school gave us basically an hour by hour schedule for us to follows. So far this week I have followed it to a T. It's only been about 7 hours a day. But, all that is about to change next week.

Tonight was "MEMORIES and MOCKERIES" at my law school. Basically, students "spoofed" the professors. I spoofed one of my favorite professors, pink suit/leopard shoes and all. I got lots of laughs. I laughed so hard tonight that my stomach hurt. You know what I am talking about-- the kind where your chest gets tight and your cheeks feel like they are about to bust.
Oh, did it feel good. I can't remember the last time I laughed like that. And, boy did I need it.
I think laughter is one of the best things on earth. I hope that over the next 69 days of bar prep that I can keep a smile on my face and even belly laugh every now and then.

Lions, Tigers and Bar Prep! OH MY!

I will be sitting for the NC bar exam this July. I paid my BarBri tuition tonight. Seems crazy to think that I just paid a crazy amount to subject myself to torture for 10 weeks this summer. 11-12 hours a day of studying, outlining, and practice exams. My stomach is literally in knots thinking about not just the actual exam but making it through the prep without having a complete heart attack. I feel like I am being thrown to the Lions...



And not these cute lil guys I played with in South Africa this summer either (it was winter there, hence the coat)...

In all seriousness, while I have a BAD case of senioritis, I am super nervous about the bar exam. I know it seems pretty trivial compared to some of the horrific things people have to go thorough and I know its just a test. But my ability to start my career and my life rides on this test. My job and a ridiculous amount of student loans are on the line. Not to mention the thought of taking it twice makes me a little crazy, like a lock me up on the 8th floor of the mental hospital crazy. (Just ask my husband)

In all the stress and all the worry, I am reminded that God will see me through. He has been so faithful in my life and I know that he will be by my side as I enter this new season in my life.

I am reading this really AWESOME book right now called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. (another sign that i have senioritis, I haven't had time to "read" for fun in 3 years and now I am making time). Anyhow, the book has a great chapter about stress. Francis Chan says that when we worry about our life, our family and our jobs we convey the belief that we think what we are going through is more important than God's command. That command is found in Phillipians 4:4 says "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice." In verse 6 it says "Do not be anxious about anything." Chan says worry implies that we don't trust that God is big enough or powerful enough to handle whats going on.

This really stung. You know that feeling when you read something and you know it was written just for you to hear. I got that feeling. Yup, I worry and stress. I stress a lot. Sure I pray about things and I ask God for help and guidance. But, so many times I find myself trying to do things own my own and worrying about what tomorrow might hold. My hope is that as I embark on this new season in my life that I will trust God to see me through and that in everything I will rejoice....(yup, rejoicing even when I am studying 12 hours a day for 10 weeks)